LOL: Chapter 6 - releasing the pain body

April 09, 2008

Chapter 6 - releasing the pain body

Ok - if you have been wondering what all this Eckhart stuff is - then watch Oprah today. She is doing a show about how this has changed lives.

Chapter 6 held the most "aha" moments for me - by far.

I came to understand so much more about myself and my pain body.

One of my biggest questions was about learning to feel and be in touch with my feelings as they arise. I have a very hard time with this.

And now I finally know why... and how to change it.

Eckhart states that children will shut down their emotions if they are painful - but they are still there and stored in the body. I know I shut off as a child. The pain body is the emotional part of the ego.

My ego was damaged - and I know how I shut off my emotions - I eat.

I have memories of sneaking at midnight to eat cookies s early as age 8 or so. I started using food to replace my feelings a long time ago.

In order for me to get in touch with my feelings again I simply need to stop the pain body from emotional eating. I say simply...

Grace hides in every form of suffering.The cross we bear is the same cross that is used to free us.

How amazing and HUGE is that?

Stop identifying with the pain body. I totally understand that. I understand compassion and love... I am really practicing being present. Now I will practice not eating and allowing my feelings to be. I feel anxiety at the thought. Yay!

Does anyone else doing this find that their pain body is really fighting to stay alive? When I become aware...my pain body starts up in other areas - trying to get me to do things that will keep "me" locked in the shame spiral. It's amazing. When I see it however, just as Eckhart says - it vanishes!!!

I have many more questions - which I am sure will be answered in time.

One of which is when a pain body marries a pain body...and you are conscious of being a pain body and your spouse has no interest in addressing the pain body...

what then?